December 8/08

I ate cake.

I know. I’m a loser. Not the right kind though. HA! The problem is that it was in the house. Left over from my dad’s surprise 70th birthday from Saturday. I gave a lot away, but we still ended up with a plate full. I guess I should throw it into the green bin, but I really HATE the idea of wasting food. GAH. On the plus side, I stayed away from the vast amounts of left over wine and beer.

B: Oatmeal, coffee
Ex: Curves
L: Salad (with cherry tomatoes – not that bad actually and cucumber – I don’t normally like either), piece of ham, olives
S: Grapefruit, no sugar
D: Slice of ham, 4 meatballs, scalloped potatoes (1/2 cup), mixed veggies (1/2 cup) – yes there are a LOT of leftovers from the party.
S: Cake. That yummy Costco kind with the lemon middle. God, Costco makes an awesome cake for $20!
H2O: 1.5L

You know, I never ever thought that I had food/emotional problems. I never thought I was an emotional eater. But I’ve come to realize that when I was a kid, my biggest reward would be staying up to watch the Dukes of Hazard eating salt and vinegar chips and drinking ½ a can of Canada Dry. I guess this is why the night time is such a problem for me. I still look forward to a good episode of Lost and lots of buttery popcorn and wine. I have to break myself of that habit. I have to ensure that my kid doesn’t get into it either.

153.6 - Dec 8/08

Sigh. Big fucking sigh. Remember all of those lovely words about not berating myself and not “dieting”? Well forget it. I’m mad. I’m mad that I have lost a measly 3 lbs and I can only blame myself and my horrid diet. I need to take control of what I’m eating and drinking. I need to stop making excuses for myself and patting myself on the back just because I go to Curves three time a week. I’m not an idiot. I know I need to have the diet part right in order to loose any weight at all. So, it’s a bad time of year (Christmas), who cares? I decide what I put in my mouth and what I don’t. So I am going to set some new goals.

1) Drink 2L of water a day – something so easy to achieve, yet I suck at it time and time again
2) Eat fruit and veggies ever day. Veggies are easy for me. I can take a salad for lunch every day and be happy, plus we usually have 1-2 vegetables at dinner every night. It is the fruit. I need to add fruit back into my morning breakfast rotation and my afternoon snacks
3) Snack – on healthy things. No more 2pm runs to Second cup for oatmeal chocolate chip cookies – I need to buy some nuts to keep in my desk
4) Give up beer. SIGH. I will not drink a beer until Christmas day. I swear.
5) Wine is for weekends – and there is no need to exceed 2 glasses
6) Get on the treadmill at LEAST 1x a week. I bought the damned thing; I should be using it WAY more.
7) Keep going to Curves 3x a week. Push myself every time.
8) Keep the blog/tracking UP. I must be accountable to me.

So there it is. All on the line. I weigh-in again on Jan 5th. I’m aiming for 148 lbs. I will get there.

Dec 3/08

B: Oatmeal, coffee
EX: 30 minutes at Curves
L: Yogurt, wild mushroom soup – homemade
S: Bag of zesty cheese Doritos (sheepish - but I was a little hung over and in need of salt), Clementine
D: Tilapia, rice, peas, 2 small cookies (I got a Christmas basket on Monday – bah)
H20: 1.5L

As long as I’m not eating Doritos every day, I guess it is okay to indulge once in a while. I must keep my eyes on the under 150lbs goal!