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Friday, October 31, 2008

Oct 29 and 30/08

A bit behind. Hope I remember everything:

Oct 29:

B: 1/2 grapefruit and oatmeal, coffee
EX: 30 minutes Curves
L: Small dinner roll and mushroom soup
S:Yoghurt, apple
D: Asian beef stirfry from ESBM

H20: at least 2L

Snack: bag of walkers 2 Halloween chocolate bars, a beer

Oct 30:
B: Cheese Croissante, coffee
L: Mushroom Soup
S: Full crispy crunch bar
Ex: Walking 3.5 hours.
D: Catelli pasta with homemade veggie and meat sauce

S: popcorn, 2x Halloween chocolate bars.

I'm not dieting on Oct 31st. Screw it.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

October 28/08

Posting quickly as I'm about to go home for the day:

B: 1/2 grapefruit
Ex: Curves 30 min.
B#2: Yoghurt and banana bread (home made with chocolate chips)
L: Salad and ham sandwich
Drinks: 1 cosmo (sadly not home made and thus with little "punch"), 1 wine
D: Spring rolls and pad thai (yum!)

H2O: Over 2L

I went to see A Chorus Line with a friend thus the drinks and Thai... it was yummy though!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Oct 27/08

Well, I’m back on track. Of course I am its Monday. I always do well at the beginning of the week because I get so mad at myself for the weekend. Oh well. Slow and steady is what is going to happen here. It is not like I’m going to lose 20lbs in four weeks. That’d be awesome though!

B: ½ grapefruit and oatmeal, coffee
L: Salad with balsamic dressing, 3 ryvita’s with cream cheese
D: Tilapia, rice and corn

At least 2L of H2O

Ex: 20 minutes walking on inclined treadmill.

A great day! Now, to keep it up is the key!

Monday, October 27, 2008

Oct 24-26/08

Okay, so I'm not going to diet on weekends. Yup. That's it, that's all. I said it. So there.

Oct 24:

B: 1/2 grapefruit, oatmeal, coffee
S: Pressed fruit, 2 Halloween chocolate bars
Ex: 30 minutes Curves
L: Tuna Sandwich, 500mL chocolate milk
D: Tuna Casserole at my parents

2x Rye and coke zero, 1x beer (or two?), Tostitos and salsa

Oct 25:
B: 1/2 grapefruit and oatmeal, coffee
L: Croissant with ham and cheese
S: Tostitos and salsa
D: Bread roll, pasta, chicken parm, Caesar salad, beans, potato, cheesecake, tea (I was at a banquet)

Drinks: 3 cosmos (homemade!), 2 or 3 fuzzy navels, 3 or 4 glasses of red wine.... I did dance though!

B: 1 slice toast and peanut butter, coffee
L: Croissant with fried egg, ham and cheese
S: Small bag of Walkers, beer
D: Roast beef with gravy, mashed potatoes, mashed turnips, carrots, ice cream, tea (dinner with my folks!)
S: Small bag of Walkers

GAH! Oh well, I’m back on that wagon. And will be on the treadmill tonight.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Weigh-In Oct 24/08

If I ever needed confirmation that food counts, today's weigh-in did it:


So, 4oz lost since Tuesday, which isn't bad, but I was hoping for more. Anyway, I'm back on track for Friday weigh-ins now.

Oct 22,23/08

Yup, blogging early in the AM for me. Might as well get this over with as the past two days have me off the wagon and watching it speed away. Sigh. I said I wouldn't berate myself or diet in the traditional sense, but you know a lifestyle change is still a change and not exactly an easy one. I've been thinking lately about the "pressure to be thin.” You know that stuff you read about in the paper or see in the media about how girls have all of this pressure to be thin to look like Lindsay Lohan or whatever. Well, just because you are an assured, confidant “woman” doesn’t mean that pressure goes away. It just changes.

Now, the pressure for me is to be healthy so that I can keep up with my kid. To have an active lifestyle to set an example for my kid. To eat well so that my kid learns good eating habits. That kind of pressure sucks because no amount of growing up can change it. I remember a woman I used to work with who didn’t have a problem with her weight or anything, but ate a lot of crap and loved the chocolate and chips. She used to hide in her kitchen and sneak stuff so that her kids didn’t see her. But they knew. They’d call out and ask her if she was eating chocolate in the kitchen and she quickly hide the evidence and deny. She’d let her kid have treats, but she didn’t control her own intake like she did theirs.

On the flip side, I remember a family I used to know whose kids would beg for fruit after dinner as that was always their desert. Not bad, not bad at all. We don’t deny our child cookies or ice cream from time to time, but most nights he has yogurt for desert. Of course most nights he eats grilled cheese or hotdogs for dinner, but I digress.

I guess the point is that I’m not going to change overnight. If I keep going to Curves that is a huge step in the right direction. The food stuff will sort itself out or it won’t, but it is not like I ever ate McDonald’s 3x a day or anything (even when I worked there).

Oct 22:
B: ½ grapefruit, oatmeal, coffee
L: Butter chicken and brown rice from ESBM
S: Other ½ of my chocolate bar and yogurt
D: ¼ chicken white meat and fries with Chalet sauce from Swiss Chalet, my kid ate the bun. Swiss Chalet is like fast food porn for me. I could likely eat it every other day for a long time. I love the Chalet sauce. I love the fries; I’ve even learned to love the new bun although I still miss the old hamburger bun. The only sadness is that they changed their Caesar salad dressing so that delight is no longer the same.
H2O: About a litre or a bit more
Ex: Nothing

Oct 23:
B: ½ grapefruit
Ex: Curves circuit 30 minutes
2nd B: Homemade pumpkin and nut spice muffin (thanks mum!), coffee
L: Salad with balsamic dressing and 3 ryevita’s with cream cheese
S: Yogurt and apple
(see, I’m on fire so far here!)
D: Chicken Chili – I put cheese and sour cream on it… I have to admit.
Now, things keep tumbling:
S: 2 beers and 2 small bags of Walkers chips (crisps) brought home from Scotland. One was plain but the other was the delightful cheese and onion flavour that only the Brits get right. God, I love them more than salt and vinegar I think. The only draw back is that you have the aftertaste for the entire next day.
H2O: Over 1L

Writing it all out, it doesn't actually seem that bad anymore. Only the scale will tell me for sure.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Oct 21/08

I freaking hate dieting. It really freaking SUCKS Monkey balls. SUCKS I say.

Anyway, good news is that I maintained save a few oz on holiday. I weighed myself at Curves and was 153.6, so I gained like 2 oz. Yeah me!

B: 1/2 grapefruit, H2O
EX: Curves circuit x2
B#2: Oatmeal, tea
L: Salad with balsamic dressing, 3 ryevita toasts with cream cheese
S: 1/2 a dove dark chocolate bar (dieting sucks), 225 cals, 16.5 g of fat
D: Pasta (white pasta - fuck off) with homemade meat/veggie sauce

H2O - a bit over a litre

I went to bed at like 9pm. Shouldn't I be getting MORE energy from eating right and exercising etc? I dunno this doesn't seem to be working out that way. Of course my size 12 cream pants from Cleo are super loose today. Bonus! I guess. I like those pants. I wonder if I'll be able to have them tailored once there is less of me? Only time will tell I guess.

Oh and I hate dieting in the worst way. I want chips and pop and booze and CRAP. I have to walk by a McDonalds 2x a day and while I'm not usually one for the McDick craving, a hashbrown ALWAYS seems like a great idea. God I love hashbrowns.

Christ, I'm freaking doomed if I plateau.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Oct 20, 2008

Well, after a week in the land of deep fried Mars bars (Scotland), I'm pleased to say I'm right back in the swing of things in terms of eating right (almost)

B: 1/2 grapefruit, oatmeal, coffee
L: Mixed green salad, balsamic dressing, hard boiled egg
S: Tea and chocolate chip and oatmeal cookie
S: Apple
D: Curried cauliflower and sweet potato soup with a ham and Swiss sandwich
W: 1L

One Tom Collins, one girly martini (I met up with a friend).

I did okay in Scotland, I guess. I ate a lot of crap: Chips, fish and chips, chips, beer, more beer etc and didn't actually do much walking (touring with the ILs involved lots of driving and not much else). But I'm sure it could have been much, much worst. I'm sure. Only the scale will tell. Anyway, the point is this is a lifestyle change and life doesn't stop on vacation, but I do think it is okay to pause it. A bit.

Friday, October 10, 2008

October 9, 2008

Well, I managed to make it out of bed at 5:30am despite my love of the red wine the night before. I felt okay which probably means I was still a bit drunk.

So without further adieu:

B: Nature Valley Sweet and Salty peanut granola bar, whole grapefruit
L: Curried Cauliflower and Sweet Potato soup
S: Yoghurt
D: Beef and Veggie Stew

H20: Over 2L
Ex: 30 minutes at Curves in the AM.

I feel great that I made it in despite falling way off of the wagon last night. I can do this! I can!

Thursday, October 9, 2008

October 8, 2008

Well, I guess if I'm going to cheat, I might as well go whole hog. Crazy, crazy day:

B: 1/2 grapefruit and oatmeal (so far, so good)

L: Girls lunch out - Mushroom and arugula salad. Veal, 1/2 a foccacia bun and more salad, sparkling water.

D: (at McDonalds with the kid). Side garden salad with a touch of dressing (I even ate the tomatoes!), small hamburger (250 cals, 8 grms of fat) and some fries - not even 1/2 a small. Shared a chocolate milk with the kid.

Then! Oh God!

Cheesies (I can't taste anything, why the fuck and I eating cheesies?).

And 5 glasses of red wine. Needless to say I did not hit the basement treadmill last night. Ah well, such is life.

When I started down this path I said I wasn't going to diet. I was going to try to avoid booze during the week (whoops) and beer in totality. I'm not a berater. I won't berate myself for "falling off the wagon". Whatever if you can't give yourself room for some movement then you'll never succeed as a whole. And I'm about success with this thing. So a pig out once in a while is okay in my books. Besides, its not like I'm going to give up wine and cheesies for life. Crap, that would suck. A lot.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

October 7, 2008

B: 1/2 grapefruit

EX: 30 min circut at Curves. Whee! I feel awake and alive all morning

B#2: Oatmeal

L: Mushroom soup, multigrain dinner roll

S: Apple

D: Curried Cauliflower and sweet potato soup.

H2O: over 2L

Gosh I wanted beer and junk last night. BAD! But, I stuck it out and didn't have any! Yippee!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

October 6, 2008

Not a bad day, but it ended worst than it should have:

B: 1/2 grapefruit, oatmeal
L: Mushroom soup from Eat, Shrink and Be Merry. Very yummy.
S: Pear
D: One chicken wing, stick of celery, individual spicy perogy pizza from Boston Pizza, 980 cal, 45 grams of fat. BLAH. 1/2 pint of sprite.

EX: 30 minute walk/run on the treadmill

I drank 2L of water as well.

I KNEW I'd be bad at BP, but I didn't HAVE to. I could have decided on a salad or made my own pizza with more veg and less uh, potatoes. Choices, choices, choices... only I can make them.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

the weekend

Friday night: Pizza. Bad, I know 2.5 slices. Not too bad


B: 1.5 toast + PB
L: 2 slices pizza
D: Left over lasagna
S: Chips and licorice. And a beer A write off!

B: 1/2 grapefruit and 1 toast +PB (natural stuff)
L: Bacon and cheese sandwich. GAH!
S: An apple
D: Salmon, rice, asparagus

EX: walked around a farm with kids for 2 hours. Spent two hours standing to make healthy soup. Not bad, especially with a cold.

Friday, October 3, 2008

A whole new world

So, I weigh 156.6 lbs at five feet tall and have decided to do something about it.

Herein I will track myself.

Friday, October 3rd, 2008:

B: Honey Bunches of Oats with milk (will buy better cereal this weekend)

S: Coffee, apple

W/O: Curves - 1 learning circut, 1 real circut

L: Left over lasagna - homemade with loads of veggies, water.

Proud moment: Turned down chocolate Bday cake from our VP as it was his Bday.

This is the start, let's see where it goes!